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Thursday, August 28, 2008

blah

And I miss you.... like the deserts miss the rain....

Everyday I curse, about the workload and long for some rest and yet in the night ... when I hit the bed the sleep evades me... and I pray for some work just to banish you from my mind. ... In desperation I light a cigarette and move to the balcony for some fresh air... I see the stars through the smoke and sigh... What good is a cellphone when you don't have a number to call... I keep my cell back to my pocket ...I still remember those cruel words that tore me apart. I know you never meant them .... I believe you never meant them but here I am battered and shattered...

I long to see you... I yearn to hear your laugh ...but it never matters... Miles apart, you probably never realize that there is someone who really needs you. And I am here ... all alone, I am running ...for what...money, power, prestige... career... No, I am running away from you... I am running away from life... And I smile... someday I will come back... and I promise...

Oops, I shake my hand as something hot touches my fingers. Damn, man I dropped my cigarette on the street below... It's perhaps the nature way to say "Boy, get back to reality!" .

I must go back to sleep...Tomorrow, a hard day awaits me...

5 comments:

shikha said...

a beautiful piece of writing..

falcon said...

thx... but unfortunately the same cannot be said abt ur posts.. for there are no new ones to read.. very bad ... :(

Man of Roma said...

I agree with Shikha. Very beautiful words. Only, why running away from life ...

falcon said...

it is supposed to be a blah... i am intrigued by the fact that people like my crap posts the best...

any logical explainations???

Man of Roma said...

Mmm... possible logical explanation why what you feel a blah can be liked more than etc.

Well, as far as I can tell, many explanations. Here a few:

1) beauty is subjective: what is beautiful to me might be not such for another person ...

2) blahs, rants etc. are sometimes revealing of deep thoughts and emotions more than the writer himself can realize (deep thoughts and emotions are always interesting)... while for readers, who are external vis-à-vis the writer’s mind, it can be easier to decipher them. We are the worst judges of our own thoughts and words. For example I was surprised to know my posts are mystic (As Poonam and you said)

3) You are an engineer so sometimes your more serious posts are logically structured in a way which can be tough for a person who doesn’t come from your same background

4) this is personal: I prefer poetry, literature etc. to science, and this post belongs to the former field

5) finally, your post is sincere and very well written